im the procrastinate are afraid of deadline

but most of all,

im the procrastinate are more afraid of starter

huh???

its like my mind has set 1 rule-must-follow-or-u-r-doom tht once i missed the starter its will definitely done seconds before deadline (translate: the possible im going to doom)

my dad said to me several times:

when the time is at the starter,

i cant ctrl my mind properly,

the situation became really fast,

my dear colon react to cortisol hormones,

me become uncomfortable!!!

in other word: im stress

its just in my mind

i must have ability to ctrl this panic thinking

cuz its might sound simple,

but reality, its growing

n affect me badly

especially in work field

damn!!!

i was adddddddicted to youtube n blogs

its terrible

any works hasnt done

melekakan

astargfirullah al azim